change

well I learnt to live with longing
that stale ache of desire

I went to the sea
to the sea each morning
I dug my toes in the sand
threw my arms wide
and called for grace
to soften the bitterness that had hardened my heart

I asked for patience
for myself
for those I loved with such fierceness

I tried so hard
I walked such a long way
with such heaviness on my back

and I shouldered it all
because I would sooner
set myself on fire
than let anyone down

because I am so strong
and so selfless

I celebrated it
I took a deep breath
steadied my stride
and I asked for more

more love,
more sadness
more life

But I am so tired
and I dont want a heavy soul anymore